So this year I haven’t managed to post as often as I’d like, Covid-19 and my yoga course have taken most of attention and I do find the OCD isn’t affecting me as much. Is this because I am so busy? Partly I think yes but I am definitely not naïve enough to think it has gone away completely. Some days I can feel it there at the back of my mind, ready to come back with a vengeance when things calm down and this is quite a scary thought.
So I wanted you all to know that I haven’t forgotten about you and hopefully the yoga will come together with this blog to give me more tools to help us all in conquering OCD completely.
I’ve looked back over the stats for the year and still right out in front is the post I wrote on Pure O and False memory OCD. It has double the views of any other post and to be honest having had OCD it’s pretty obvious why it’s up there in front.
I think Pure O and false memory OCD are arguably the worst parts of having OCD, they’re completely hidden from view so people don’t know they’re happening and the thoughts are so terrifying at times that just the idea of uttering them to another living sole can be completely debilitating. In fact OCD works in a way that it will find your deepest, darkest fears and go to town, making you feel like the worst person alive – you’re not by the way.
Here are a few things to remember;
- The first thing is that OCD likes you alone and isolated, it wants to be your only ‘friend’. Laughable isn’t it, OCD is probably the worst friend you could possibly have, the one who just takes from you and only gives you shit in return, if we had a friend like that in real life we would get rid of them pronto! It might not feel like it at times but you are separate from your OCD and you can be in control of it.
- However hard it is you must try and speak to someone, even if initially it’s just yourself. This might sound odd but I’ve found even by verbalising the thoughts out loud their power is reduced. I think most of the time we know the thoughts aren’t real and so by saying them out loud it can reinforce this.
- Always remember everyone has these thoughts! You should take comfort not fear in the fact that the thoughts repel you and make you uncomfortable, this is the natural reaction and 100% means you would never act on them.
- Believe in yourself, you are not a bad person – self love is essential for recovery.
- Be mindful and live in the now, it is all we have, your version of the past only exists in your mind.
- Avoid alcohol and other mind numbing substances, they are only short term fix’s and will actually make the thoughts worse overall.
- Write it down – when I started this blog it was for the purpose of passing on helpful tips to others struggling but surprisingly it has also become a form of therapy for me as well. Putting things on here detaches them from myself, allowing me to look at them more objectively.
- Remember there is light at the end of the tunnel, I still have very dark days but I am far enough into my journey now to know that that feeling doesn’t last forever and the darkness does lift – even though at times it feels like it won’t.
- You are not alone – though at times you will feel like you are – around 750 thousand people suffer from OCD in the UK and that stat is closer to 2.2 million in the US.
Wishing you all the best Christmas and New Year, I’ll see you in 2021!
Lets hope it’s a good one!
Stay Strong xxx