So what feels like years ago I said something along the lines of,
‘I’m going to give mindfulness a go because I’ve dabbled in it and it seems to work’.
So it was actually Oct 2017 and to be honest I haven’t really got any further along my mindfulness journey which is incredibly disappointing.
Recently I’ve been feeling incredibly stressed and anxious, my stomach problems have been getting worse and I’ve felt quite out of control – which I HATE – I don’t seem to be able to find a diet which suits me and I am struggling to think clearly as my mind fog comes and goes. Even sitting myself down to write this blog post has been a challenge but I know it is important that I do.
So also about a year ago I downloaded a mindfulness app, it has a feature that lets you put in an alert so that every day you get a reminder to do just 5 minutes (initially) of mindfulness meditation, should be easy right? Every evening I see it pop up on my phone and every evening I just ignore it and carry on with whatever I am doing – I obviously have no time for that. Writing this now I know my husband is going to give me a hard time about this, I know alright, insert rolling eyes emoji here. I also know he only does it because he loves me.
We are very self destructive as humans, we almost rebel against the things we know do us good. We know we should eat well, exercise, drink in moderation, not smoke or do drugs, we should meditate and sleep for 8 hours each night etc etc. So why don’t we do these things? Is it because we think it makes us boring? I know personally when I start trying to do all these things I feel very overwhelmed and you have to be very determined as no one else seems to be doing them so there’s very little support.
I went round a friends house yesterday and out on the floor were two cakes and a bag of cookies and then the conversation was all about trying to loose weight. What is wrong with us? Does it just take a bit more effort and therefore we can’t be bothered?
Anyway I digress, this post was supposed to be about mindfulness meditation. So this week when that notification on my phone pops up, an much as I know I’m not going to want to I’m going to try and take that five minutes and tune in with my body because I owe it to myself.
I will let you know how it goes, stay tuned and of course as always,
Stay Strong xxx