Now I’m guessing this is a trigger for a few of us out there, I know for sure it’s always been one of mine. There’s something about blood which just makes my mind go,
‘If you touch that you’re going to catch something horrible’.
In the past if I walked past a plaster in the street it would play on my mind for the rest of the day. I didn’t even need to touch it, my Magical Thinking OCD could work out a way to make sure I could still catch something from it. Sometimes it didn’t even have to be blood, just a red blob, it could be marker pen, jam, jelly, anything that could potentially be misconstrued as blood and my OCD would see to the rest. I don’t know how many times I’ve thought about what I would do if I caught an infectious disease and how many hours I’ve catostrophised and stressed about all the possible outcomes, once again it’s actually very sad to think about.
Today I’m still battling these thoughts but I don’t seem to dwell on them or catostrophise about them anymore. I still have an aversion to blood but that feels a little more ‘normal’, I’m not sure anyone likes other peoples blood on them or would want to voluntarily touch some.
One of the best things I heard when trying to combat this trigger (from my CBT therapist) was that,
‘diseases can’t live in blood outside of the body for longer then 48 hours’,
now I’m not even sure if this is 100% true, but I choose to believe it and it pretty much cured this phobia for me. So if you see a plaster on the street that has blood on it, the likelihood it can hurt you is pretty much zero.
Once you can convince yourself of something then the thoughts are easy to bat away and eventually they stop coming all together. All these things are a work in progress of course but I’ve found through my recovery sometimes you’ll hear something and it’ll just work for you and then that’s another trigger down.
Hopefully this one will help someone else out there.
Stay Strong xxx