So I’ve chatted about my UC (ulcerative colitis) a few times on this blog, I’ve suffered with it for most of my life along with my OCD. My diet has always been a bit of a balancing act for me and like probably with most people if I eat a lot of ‘junky’ type foods I know I’m going to suffer the next day.
For a while now I’ve removed lactose from my diet which has helped but more recently I’ve been advised to remove all dairy, wheat, egg and gluten, wow! This really hit me hard, I already knew how hard just removing lactose was but I had found ways to make it work but then to have to remove two entire food groups and lots of foods I really enjoy – like cheese – was a real blow. It took me about two weeks to actually start to get my head around it, I really thought before the tests that I would feel positive afterwards and that they would give me something to work towards but actually surprisingly that isn’t how I felt at all.
So over the last month I’ve bumbled through at home and I do think I feel slightly better HOWEVER there has to be a balance for me because of my mental health. One of the hardest things about cutting out lots of food groups is that it makes going out for lunch, dinner etc incredibly difficult, in fact I find most of the time there is only one thing I can actually have on the menu and even then I normally have to remove the sauce (the nice bit) to make it work. It makes me not want to go to restaurants, to eat food that I don’t even want. I know how important getting out and socialising is for my mental health so where does this leave me? Well to be honest currently I’m not sure, this is the conversation I’m having in my head today.
Do I go and meet my friends for lunch and eat something I’m not going to enjoy or stay in and have a more enjoyable lunch but not see my friends? This dilemma is coming up more and more for me and it’s tough.
So do I put my mental health or physical health first? Of course we know that neither can work without the other and so I need to find a balance, not sure where that is yet but I’m working on it.
life is all about balance, anything done to the extreme is normally unsustainable and life isn’t black and white. We’re all looking for that quick fix but unfortunately life doesn’t work like that.
If anyone else is experiencing anything similar and has any advice then please comment and let me know and as always,
Stay Strong xxx